أنيـــن في الزحام...
أنيـــن في الزحام...
لمسة حنانــٍ وسط الرماد...
أيعقل..؟
أأصدق ما تراه ألف عين
و كذبه قلب أطهر الكائنات؟
كلمة واحدة...
أربعة حروف متضاربة...
[ أ ] للأمل..
[ ــبـــ ] للبقاء الأبدي..
[ حــ ] لحرمانية التعدد..
[ ــهــ ] لهفوات سابقة..
زحمة في شوارع المدنية ...
ضجيج في أزقة متّسخة ...
لا...
لا إنحاء و لا تعذّر...
لا ...
لا هروب و لا نكران ...
سؤال بلا جاوب محدد..
هل هو وهم مغلف بأمل وهمي؟
أم هل هو جرح محتم محتم؟
Less by one.
He comforts her with a soft steady tune; “It’s alright, 99% of the world does this. We’re not the only ones”
With the tears flooding down her face, she feels heavier more and more. “But I was from the 1% and I was happy about it!”
“I was too… I was too”
Silence… never been this loud.
What have I done?
Where can my essence cover and run?
O’ Guilt, leave me alone!
Impede tossing me with stones.
I loved him…
Forever his…
No, it was not me…
No, I cannot believe.
Battered the virtue of my…
Guilty, no matter how much I cry
A repulsive reflection of my face
O’ Innocence, why have you left no trace?
Are you really..?
Are you really..?
The tears fall down like rain...
The hands with guilt are stained
Thoughts of you linger in my mind
A heart breaker or the perfect kind…
In the darkest moments of my days
You come and lash a smile on my face
So magically…
So easily…
I wonder of what makes me now?
Forbidden are my dreams out loud
The heart thumps faster in your presence
The soul snivels in your absence...
Who are you?
What are you…?
مراســيم حبــي لهــ ..
أجلــس وحـدي أتـأملــ ..
بدموع حزني أتجرع ألم الوحدة ...
فانـــوس منطفئة نارهـْ ...
اشتياق قلبــ ولهان على حبيبهـْ ...
هكــذا هي حالي من دونهــْ ...
ضائعة.. تائهة.. متمزقة روحي أنا ...
أنا فتــاة لا تفقه شيئا ً من الغزلــ ...
يتيمة الحب كنت طوال عمريــ ...
أتلوه لمعة عيونهــْ ...
أتعثر بأحرفيــ مجرد سماع رنين صوتهــْ ..
أحبهـــْ ..
أحبهـــْ ..
مهما نثرتها على هواء أذنيهـْ ..
أعيدهــا بالمرة ألفــاً ...
منكــ و إليــكــ ..
[ أشتــاقــ إليـــكــ ْ ]
في الصباحــ تارة...
و تارة في المســــاء ...
كـالـطـفـلـة الـضغـيــرة و دمـيـتـهــا المفضــلة ...
لو غـابت عن عينها ثــانيـة ..
يغلب الجنون حواســـهــا ...
يـثـار بركــان القلقــ في جوفهـــا ...
[ أحـــنـــُ إليــكـــْ ]
احـــلمـــ لبرهة ...
يـأخـذنـيــ صوتــكــ الدافئــ إلى أبــعــد الحــــدود ...
اشــعـر بقـلبــيـــ .. يـتـرفـرفـــ بـاشـتـيـاقـــ ...
اشــعـر بلمســـة يديــكــ ...
...
تـداعـبـــ خــصـلـــ شـعـريـــ الذهبيـــْ ...
صـوتكــ يــرن بـوجـدانـيـــ ...
منـــ هو قـبـانـيـــ و شـعـره مـقــابـلـــ كلامكـــ ...؟
اسبحــ في بحـرعـيـونـكــ البـنـيـتـيـنــ ...
فأتجرأ ...
أنامل أصابعي تتمختر على صدركــ ...
تتراقصــ على وريد رقبتكــ ...
حتى تصل إلى شفتيكــ ...
أقربكــ إلي بروية ...
انصتــ إلى نبضاتــ قلبكــ ...
قلبيــ بدق أكثر فأكثر ...
شفتايا ترجفـــ ...
أغلق عينايا بحنية ...
و نتلاقى ....
تلك هي اللحظة ...
التي أهرب منكــ ..
لأعود إليكـــ ...
فمتى تكتملـــ اللحظة ..؟؟
"أحبكـــ " ...
"أحبكـــ" ....
"أحبكـــ " ...
أنتــ فقط ...
أحبكـــ ...
To be Yours...
With him, my soul flies out in the vast space; not wanting to land on the ground. She feels, thinks and is different. She feels special, feels something she never felt before. She believes for a minute; she's the only one on this earth but then wonders; is she really the one there? the only one feeling this special.. Is it normal? or is it just her?
To be Yours
I think of you day and night
Somehow, you make me feel just right
Holding your hand
Somewhat I cannot withstand
You came in so fast
Wonder if forever you’ll last
Never regret the emotions
Trying hard to endure this notion
I need you so much
My heart says “it’s you I love”
I wish you were next to me
Close to my heart beat
Close my eyes and dream
far away from what seems to be real
I feel you slowly owning everything in my head…
Yet I find you no where near my bed..
The caslte of Dreams..
The greatest change in life happens all of a sudden. One, two, three. That's it; you're moving on the road you think is right. The change is not the huge the deal here, it's lasting longer; and possibly forever is the part that matters. Tomorrow, Will the love be strong be enough to stay? Will the soul finally declare; it's other half is here?
The narrator is finally believing, enjoying, smiling, and hoping. But, afraid... Will today's happiness be overshadowed by tomorrow's darkness? Will it be too much that it all disappears at once? With all this fear accumulating; she doesn't want to let go, she's finally somewhere she belongs...
The castle of Dreams..
The soul intensely shivers
Yet the heart within twitters..
You, me and us
Love, commitment, and trust
my heart, yours and us
Confusion of thoughts scatter like dust
My mind, yours and us
Reality is nothing but a must..
The more I think of you…
The more I feel sad and blue
The more you think of me
The more you wonder if it’s ever going to be real…
A princess to you I will always be
Will you be my king and let me be your queen
Will we ever enter the castle of dreams?
Will the love between us ever be real?
دعــنــيـــ ... [Arabic Pros]
دعنـيــ ...
أستبق [الأحداثــ] مع قلبك القاسيــ ...
دعنــيـــ ...
أقطع حبل الأمل [الوهميـِــ] ...
دعنيـــ ...
أعكس مرآة [الظلامــ] عليكـ
وأنظر...
تــأمل يا [هذا] ...
تلكــ هي [حياتيــ]...
آمالي ...
أحلامــ [ــنـــ] ـــا
فما كنت أنت الذيــ [دمرها]
بل كنت الذي حعل مني ـ أضحوكة – للزمانــ ...
كلما سألته "كيف حال حبـيـبيــ ؟"
ضحِـــك عليـــْ ..
رسم لي ابتسامة [المهرجــِ] بين غيومه ...
علقـَ [آماليـــ] فيــ هواء الأبدية ...
و سألنيــ .. "و هلـ لكـ ِ حبيــب؟"
"لما يا زمـــانيــ ..؟
قد ينكر الجميع حبيــ له...
إلا أنتــ ..."
"نكر هو حبه لكـ...
فأيــُ حبيبـــٍ ذاكـــ ؟"
فاذهبـــ ...
أرجوكــ ...
اذهبـــ ...
و لا تعود...
Shadows Never disappear...
He can't get through to her... She was uncertain, Blaming the best man she can ever hope for to hold her through a lonely night. He cannot believe, How could he have not seen the fear in her...
Blaming Him for his Mistakes… She wrote:
I’m not thinking about you anymore, I finally found someone. Someone who looks at me like I’m the only one around, someone who respects me, wishes me well, and promised me that he’ll never hurt me. Someone who looked into my eyes and deeply confessed “I felt something the moment I laid my eyes on you, I don’t know what it is yet but once I figure it out I’ll be sure to let you know…”
Someone who finally has the heart and strength to do the one thing I only asked from you. He puts a smile on my face without even realizing that all he does is just make me happy, make me feel alright, comfortable, safe, and warm… in love…
Every time I lay my eyes on him, he gives me a reassuring look that everything will be alright. I swim into those eyes of his, something I would never be caught dead doing with you. Even when I express feelings of guilt to him; which I should remind you, never had the chance to do with you, he asks me to open my heart, close my eyes and let him in… “You gotta let me in your heart, I can’t be a heartless man I might damage people”
“Why, where’s your heart?”
“Woman, you are one great hustler. Took my heart and act like you don’t know anything about it”
I giggled, and felt my heart twitter, palms shiver, face blush. I know now for sure, Cupid hit me hard and knocked me off my feet! He’s always there. Never misses a thing. Always on time. Never lies. He told me everything I do and do not need to know. He’s everything but you… and that’s exactly why he stood out of a crowd!
You never gave me the attention I needed, never cared about me or my needs and as selfish as I might sound right now, you knew how bad I felt but you never cared. You never gave a crap about how I felt, you were using; playing; confusing; and hurting me… The girl who would’ve given you her soul on a golden plate just by a sign from you…
You killed me with your stalling… I knew there was something wrong about you and I told him that. I told him I was hurt by the only person I ran to when I cried… and while unloading the confusing story to him. The story I never dared to tell a soul about because I simply cared too much about you… I felt him burning, becoming angry… Manlier… He swore to me, he’ll never hurt me the way you did but I couldn’t believe him, I thought things are too good to be true… and there I was, blaming the man of my dreams with your faults and mistakes, and I finally had the guts to let go, but not you… him.. as I sat there watching him walk out of my life because of you, I hated you, despised your scent, loathed the letters of your name… because you were the reason I no longer trusted anyone who’s eyes claim to love, exactly the way yours’ did…
Days passed by, felt like years… he never showed, called or was even mentioned in front of me, like he never existed. It was killing me, and I knew waiting for him to come back won’t work… could this be over? The more I thought about him, my mind was forced to think about you and that burned even more… because somehow, you were still souring my life even when we’re not in the same place. One thing my soul and you had in common, I hated them both! And there goes the flame more… I couldn’t stand myself or anything around me! Never have I thought that Hate might actually be a feeling I experience on daily bases. Before I go to sleep, when I wash my face, eat or drink.
I saw him in a mall, standing in front of the cigars booth, picking the same type I threw from his hand and begged him not to touch. He was a mess. His facial hair looked like it hasn’t been touched for days. His pale pink shirt had a stain on the side; his eyes were so weary… I felt his negative energy rushing into my body, making my knees shiver and weak. I just stood there, staring at the floor, trying hard to sallow my guilt, my heart wouldn’t let me. And for a second; that lasted forever, our eyes met and they wouldn’t change directions, blink or move. He lifted the cigar box, showing it to me puts it in the basket, walks towards me, stops a few inches away. Frozen; I couldn’t move. I held my breath. Whispers to me with a trembling voice “It was love”.
A small tale of hopes and desire
The Glow in his eyes makes my skin respire
Holds my hand like no other man
Clear, firm and knows where he stands
Real is what I call my late night dreams
Sweet silence in my soul with no screams
My heart beats louder and louder
Concentrating on surroundings has never been harder
Swimming into his navy blue eyes
No deception, dishonesty or lies
The deepness of that voice
Something in me has made its choice
Must have done a deed in time
How come such an endowment appears as a crime?
Despite everything said and told
Not every shine is gold
My mind and heart don’t beat the same song
Confused as I am for long
Fade and reappear
Those gloomy shadows never disappear
Soundless Tear...
Silenced all these years
Only speaks with precious tears
No one listens well…
Gazing into her eyes no one could tell
The fantasies of a hidden Cinderella
Immorality exceeds the doings of Cruwella
Captivated in her castle of hopes;
No way out, not even a safety rope…
Random, random, random
Her sanity now on the list to abandon
Happiness can never be found
Putting her head down, she makes no sound…
Guilty Feet..
Where does this guilt come from?
Is it you?
Is it me?
Sudden with a solemnly act of love
Steel, break, burn and demolish the dream
A white dove no longer representing peace
Catch the lost with one hand
Let go of the found with the other and scatter them like sand
Where does this guilt come from?
Is it you?
Is it me?
Put the hatred down slowly
Give out a sigh of relief
Train ones’ self to accept the least
Hold the pieces of the puzzle together
Gain self respect by nothing but all
Where does this guilt come from?
Whose name is it?
It is yours?
It is mine?
For those of you who are confused: It will be sometime before I explain what I meant here.. =) So Analyse and Read a thousand times ...
An Insomniac Cry...
Song: [Hodges – My side of the story]
An Insomniac Cry...
Buried thoughts desperately seeking to unload…
No one there to hear me cry out loud...
Bitter water smoldering my skin
Light so bright, appear to be dim
Once used to be solitarily mine...
Agonizingly seeking some peace of mind
Focused on the ticks of the clock
Begging silently for it to stop
Between the blink and the other
So somnolent, my eyes scarcely adjust color
The organs shriek for rest
The skies seem to be covered by a soundproof vest
I can not be awake or asleep
Silence throughout the night boldly creeps.
Roon’s Note: Hoping that no one stumbles into the land of insomnia because it’s a one a way ticket only and once you’re in you’ll never leave. No matter what you try, you’ll always, always¸ go right where you began.
Vacation Break ..
As you can see, unlike myself I posted 2 poems. Well, You are right; it is a dream.
I'm traveling in hours time..
I'm not sure if i'll be able to get a decent connection there..
You can read more about my story here
Just like billy ray Cyrus sang
Have fun everyone; I'm going back home..
Rest to sure that i'll be writing so many poems
you wouldn't find the time to read them all..
With Love <3
Roon...
You Were..
She Is Broken. She is in shock and cannot recover. The Only reason she lived for; the only one who renewed her faith broke her heart. All she wants is a peaceful sleep, where she can’t be broken ever again…
"I always knew I would look back on my tears and laugh; but I never knew I would look back at my laughter and cry." - Anonymous
You Were…
Folded pages unfold
Past stories still untold
I had a feeling about you
I know that nothing was true
How could my feelings betray me?
How can nothing be real?
Close my eyes and remember
Memories take me back to September
You were so blue and torn apart
I found the keys to your broken heart
Internally confused
You never admitted that you’re bruised
My ears were there to listen
I wrapped my heart and to you it was forever given..
So close to my soul
You had the perfect lover role
Tears reject my request to fall
Words fail to come out at all
You were so close; you broke me
You so dear; you tore me...
The Silver Necklace...
She really loves him, more than she can admit. He used her not once, not twice but all the time. She didn’t mind breaking her heart for his sake, but when the last piece of her heart was smashed into small smithereens. She couldn't hold on anymore and all he does is walk away, walk away from their dreams, hopes, memories and moments…
All he does is walk away; when she needs him the most...
"True love doesn't have a happy ending; True love doesn't have an ending." - Anonymous ~
The Silver Necklace…
I don't want this anymore
Take it all and go
leave and shut the door
my heart have had a wakeup call
set my life straight
No more tampering with fate
disappear before it's too late
your love was never enough for me to stay
I always wanted to leave
is it you or the need?
Confused by your intentions towards me
How come I feel safe when your here?
My heart keeps to give
in the mist I continue to live
he never considered me his
I'm too weak to do this
Remove the bandage of hope
cut the connections rope
too young to act old
Settling for silver will never make me gold
I Do...
We argue that love doesn’t last forever. We all consider the fact that it’s going to end one day, and we have to move on with life. Even though, it’s just started! This is the Perfect never ending love story; it’s found everywhere even if there is doubt. Love cannot be created because it’s already there. We just have to know how to feel it right. No matter how hard times get, happy endings will always come around.
I Do..
He misses the softness of her voice...
she needs his warmth and his word of choice...
A kiss to her photograph at night...
sleeps after her tears have dried...
He doesn't want to be late
all she does is dream about their wedding date
White dress, red flowers, and the sea,
her exact thoughts and dreams...
Friend, wife and mother of his kids,
in his mind during their first kiss...
love, peace and harmony
it's not all about money...
honey moon spent forever...
Everyday, a new change of weather...
Hands held together,
now love has become forever...